This comes to you super late and from my bed as I have just had an aforementioned Epiphany!
On a side note in case the title quote isn’t familiar to you, it’s from a song by my favourite band of all time “Bowling for Soup” based in Houston Texas! Big shout out to you guys, you’re awesome!
Right! So my story is this…
I’ve recently been asked what I mean when I say “I’m rediscovering darkened/forgotten parts of my brain” in my journey to recovery from severe depression…
I got asked to explain by a colleague and at the time I had no real idea of how to explain the feeling of awakening and joy that comes when you’re brain comes back to life and light after so long in the dark. I think the analogy I gave her then was “try imagining pure darkness with small clumps of light in certain places, but none joined together… That the lighting up was a literal feeling of new lights appearing in dark spaces and bridges of lights connecting so that less space is left in darkness because the light can spread to more places with strength.”
Unfortunately she didn’t really understand what I was getting at. In fairness it wasn’t a very relatable analogy for someone who has never experienced anything like it.
To my Epiphany! A small but (hopefully) relatable metaphor to describe that feeling…
That intense sensation you get when using the tips of your fingers after cutting back long nails. The skin has always been there but it hasn’t been used for a while, covered by the hard nail. Once the protective nail has been removed, the skin is used again! It can feel again! It sends so many signals to the brain to say “Hey! Look at this feeling right here, this is new/different!”
It doesn’t last for long, but it’s a surprise how something so apparently mundane as cutting your nails can produce such a sensory overload.
I hope this makes as much sense to you as it did in my head, but regardless I hope it gives an Idea of how I feel sometimes in therapy or on a really great day! Like the world is full of light… My brain can’t help but show me!
Good night all.